It’s been quite some time since I’ve had any thoughts to share. For those of you who follow this blog, thank you for still being with me. We’re coming up on the end of the year and I’ve been doing a lot of reflection. I try very hard not to let personal issues get me down and keep me down but this year has been extremely difficult for my family.
The police report from my mother-in-law’s accident just came out the other day. The Salem News article headline calls out the accident as “overwhelmingly avoidable.” We had a feeling this would be the result of the accident reconstruction and police investigation, but why did it take six months for us to get more news? There’s no closure for the family yet. We’re still tied up in loose ends of police work and court hearings. I’m considering going to the pretrial hearing in February, but I’m not sure if that would help with my healing process or just make the wounds deeper.
This past week, a coworker also had a traumatic family experience. My heart just broke when I heard about the story because it reminded me of the search for my uncle this summer. I’m glad my coworker’s wife was found alive. I’m not sure I’d have been able to handle a different outcome.
Travis and I are going to Spring Hill, FL next week to visit my parents. After losing Linda and Mark this year, we felt it was important to take Travis to see his other grandparents and get to spend some time with them. As happy and excited as I am to be heading to the airport on Tuesday for a much-needed vacation, I feel guilty to be leaving my husband at home to get through the first Christmas without his mother alone. Neither of us gets tons of vacation time from our employers and we used most of it this year for funerals. Brandon said it’s ok for me to take Travis to visit, but I’m really worried about how he, his father and brother will make it through the holiday.
Once we get through the rest of the holiday season, I’m going to refocus my writing and make sure I’m providing content that isn’t focused on just myself and my family. I hope you understand this necessary detour and I look forward to conversing with you in 2010.
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